When the next level thing
isn’t happening
When you feel like you’ve been
working on yourself forever
Working on breaking those patterns
Trying to be more self-aware
attempting to re-program old beliefs
that no longer serve you
Striving to improve habits
that keep you
from looking in the mirror
For weeks, months, years
You work, work, work
on the inside, on the outside
You give up, and start again
You know you’re growing
but the more things change
the more they feel the same
You’re still not where you want to be
Or who you want to be
And feel that you should be
Who you were born to be
Who you’ve truly always been
So you begin to wonder
where you’ve gone wrong
You overthink, overanalyze, and obsess
You focus on not having it
You deeply feel its absence
Each day
you are in a deep state of lack
And you don’t even realize it
As you continue plowing through
doing the work on yourself
limiting beliefs, neglected emotions
and the chemicals within
fight change, create resistance
Your mind stays with the thoughts
that remind you its not here yet
Your body follows
with less subtle
painful reminders
that you wait
that you failed
again
Oh, you thought
those aches and pains were random?
No –
your body feels it, too
And everything just seems like
you’re not doing something right
Something in you is missing
You’ve made too many mistakes
It’s never the right time
Something always comes up
You don’t really know
what to do next
But the truth couldn’t be farther from that
You do know what to do
You do know who you are
you just can’t
be that person yet
because you refuse
to fully accept and love
who you are now
You can’t reach
for a new you
As you shame, dismiss, and avoid
everything about you now
then salt the wound
by adding more misalignment
And don’t get me wrong
accepting doesn’t mean
continuing to choose
the same
It means choosing you
again and again
even when you don’t want to
Choosing
to forgive yourself
to trust yourself again
to back yourself
No matter how many obstacles
are thrown your way
Not because its easy, no
But because you choose
to acknowledge that
all those painful reminders
don’t outweigh the big vision in you
of how your life is meant to be
Who you were born to be
So, when the waves
of frustration and impatience
come crashing into you
As they do
Choose a higher frequency
by choosing
to remember
You are on your way
You are not where you used to be
You wouldn’t even be reading this
If you were the same person
as yesterday
Remember how far you’ve come
Remember
that you are trying your best
And if you are not
Well, then get off your ass
and go change your reality
But do it one step at a time
Honoring
every stepping-stone
and lesson learned
in the present
With compassion for yourself
With unconditional love
For your SELF
Finding
gratitude and release
for every mistake along the way
Honoring
yourself for showing up
for yourSELF
While you work ON yourself
For doing the work that matters most
And removing
the constant judgement of yourself
Embodying
the next level you
By choosing her/him
everyday
Even when its uncomfortable
Because you are
Surrendering
and trusting that you are worthy
of everything you desire
Embracing
that you truly are deserving
of anything you can dream of
Cleaving
to gratitude for it all
even the shit
because it grows flowers
Choosing
to continue leaning into
Not what was
Not who you used to be
No, not anymore
But what could be
Because anything is possible
When you choose
To see everything
As something
That’s working in your favor.